Story of a Prejudicial

Wisdom of a judge, I do not possess
But a judge nonetheless I am everyday;
Deceit being the way of the world
Breaks hearts everyday;
So judgement I have, to protect myself.
Everybody judges is all I say
To save me from the heartbreak
It caused me today.

To judge the one close to my heart;
Never foreseen before any-day
Was all I needed to rethink my preconceptions
About judgement today

A Judgement that rendered it’s verdict
And tore my heart away
Not by the pain received by its direction
But by misjudgment that drove my love away.

Ruled by my insecurities, I lay
Torn down by the decision made
I ought to live with them from now on everyday
Being a constant remainder of the things that have transpired as of late
With the promise to never again “judge” someone; that led my life astray.

The Voice of Addiction

A familiar voice sounded from the shadows

Just when things seemed to be better again

Just when things seemed to return to normalcy

The voice was heard again and again

Each time getting louder than before

What does it take to beat it?

This question takes me back to when I first heard it;

It made me feel abandoned and left alone

A pinch of reality that I've heard it before

But this time it was different

The feeling that it left me with was cold,

And it left me desperate—

Desperate for attention,

Desperate for affection

But the question was left unanswered—

Oh! Why did I listen to the voice that caused my addiction?

And now the voice of my addiction

Some say that it will leave you alone,

If you don’t listen to it through extended periods

While others say that

Unless the initial feeling that created the voice

Is purged from me

The voice will always triumph

Most agree that counselling is the best way

But the voice still in the shadows

Begs to differ

Being judged is not something you’d want

I’ll say

And I long for it to not see the light of day

Yes, I want the voice to go away

But to leave as silent as it came

Lest it be found,

Not to leave a trace

I pray upon it everyday

Pray and pray again

Until one day I heard it no more

But today the voice is back from the grave

Or was it with me all along

Muted by faith, but did the voice never leave?

Was it because I stopped praying?

Or was it because I never changed

Things of faith, you never mean to cross

For many take refuge under it

Was it now a voice pushing me for confession?

In any case, the voice didn't affect me as it did before

But from the familiarity of it all

I know that I have to come through it

Later on I did what had to be done

I muted him, the silver tongued serpent for all eternity

So much so that years later,

Its existence forgotten

I rest in the shade of the almighty

Who left me warm and as bright as day. 

Roadside Presence

Every step I took pulled me away from the life I lived.

Every move that I took made me feel more nauseous.

I could feel the earth shake below me.

No one to guide me, No one to comfort me

For I was now all alone

Flashes of light zooming past me made me realize the pace at which life moves,

And how short life is.

The stars in the midnight sky look down upon me

The grains of sand on the sidewalk was shimmering in the moonlight

Made me feel something that I’ve never felt before

I was not alone; I was just indifferent to the presence around me

The 'presence' that gave me a different view on my current predicament

It gave me a sense of excitement and thrill;

As opposed to the feeling of humiliation and embarrassment that I felt without it

It gave me a sense of hope and direction.

I didn’t get what I wanted, but I got what I needed

Something that could change me,

Something that could renew me,

Something that I was searching for all along

I now have peace.

God's purpose

I saw you struggle through life;

I saw you getting frustrated with life's failures.

I wanted to explain life to you;

About life's purpose.

If only you'd listen,

You cry out for help

Yet you don't believe, 

That change is possible. 

The past is dead.

Accept me into your life

And your life's purpose will be revealed to you. 

Worldly desires are like a disease;

They spread and take over you

To the point than you have no control;

They are never satisfied. 

Put your faith in me

And know that your life is in my hands

I'll show you true happiness

Happiness that fills you with peace and satisfaction

Happiness that comes from fulfilling your purpose.